The Ballad of Morbid and Putrid By Sawyer Lovett

IMG_5016 (2)
The Ballad of Morbid and Putrid
How many times
Did she tell me I’d be
p e r f e c t
if I were a boy,
further pulverizing my
tender lesbian heart.
& here I am
all these years later;
relocations & relationships,
addiction & recovery,
all these miles & memories later.
They say you never forget
your first
& I am certain, having outlived mine
remembering is memorial.
I will always wonder
what she would think
of the boy I became;
of the man in progress
of the person she knew
but never really met.
Would I be perfect now
in this same skin, differently shaped?
I will always miss her
will always wonder
if knowing myself earlier
could have saved us both.
Sawyer Lovett is a writer, bookseller, and professor. He is a pretty good person, but he is always trying to be better.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s